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guiding spirit

12/6/00

I guess everyone has problems at this age, and we're all just struggling to get through our lives with minimal damage. But it seems like everyone around me is having a whole lot of trouble, and it's not like I'm not, but I always find myself helping other people out. I'm not complaining at all; I really appreciate it when people unload their grief, gossips, secrets, whatever on me. It's an honor or something; I really take it to heart. It just makes me go back to this reincarnation thing: people are reincarnated, and in each lifetime they learn something new until finally they attain perfection. I'm not saying I'm just so much wiser than all of my friends, because in many ways I'm not, but I don't know, it feels like I have been doing a lot of guiding lately. It makes me sad that all of my friends are in such turmoil, but it's also educating for me. I feel so glad sometimes that I've pretty much 'found myself' by this point, when they're all having trouble figuring out where they want to be, but I also kinda wish I could go through it again, even though it hurt a lot. It's interesting to 'reinvent' yourself.